痛苦...痛哭

痛哭过后...心情，真的会好点吗？

这两个晚上
bb的心情好差
躺在床上
眼泪却不停的流下

很自责
自责自己没正真努力过
突然在想
如果当初读私人学院...
如果当初读师范学院...
现在的我，将会是怎样

心，麻了，死了
心，不再像以前那样听话了
换来的，却是眼泪
眼泪，不听话
无缘无故就流下
看着桌上的书
想读也读不进
bb我...哭了

突然
目标，理想
渐渐离我远去
我看不到它，摸不到它，更感觉不到它
怎么办？

少过两个月的时间，
这我知道 ，
我真的有心无力
我真的读不进

痛苦，痛哭
谁来救我？
谁来听我倾诉？
谁来安慰去我？
拿着电话，按着通讯录
好多名字...
最后
还是放弃了找人倾诉的决定
多得不知找谁倾诉？
还是没有倾诉的对象？
很可悲吧...

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
好想放弃
一切的一切
让这一切都结束
可是
想起鼓励我的人...
对我期望的人...
bb我，
又哭了...

崩溃，
真的崩溃了...
从来没这样过，
也很怕这样的情况出现...
终于，
它出现了...

无奈

by bbwen

nite

bb wanna be pig le
nt so tired
din feel sleepy
bt nothing to do
dunno y

心情好沉重
bb怎么了
自己也不知道
没什么心情
什么都不想做

明天大家打算去三叔的apartment
打算去游泳
bb不知道要不要去
明天再打算吧

晚安
good nite

by bbwen

holidays

monday...21 sept 2009
hang out with my family
we go to jusco
having our dinner at old town
then window shop there
mummy buy many thing
use de..eat de
all gt buy
detergen..vegetables..ice-cream..chocolate
but...bb forgot to bring my recycle bag
its monday
no plastic bag given
omg...1 ppl take some lo...
haha...so funny
after tat
go to secret recipe
buy cake for bb's little brother
cause his birthday

then back home lo

* lady bird's cake from secret recipe...cute



tuesday...
hang out with my dearest friends
darling..heroshi..christine
we go out at 11 morning
then we go BM's bebe
look some dress there
after tat we go to pacific
have our lunch at pizza hut
after tat go to vincci & bebe
also have some look there
then have our movie
'Tsunami At Haeundae'
nice movie
very touching
like tat movie so much
after movie
walk around there
then have our dinner at G Garden
steamboat..bbq..sushi
ok lo...nice
stay at there
almost 2 hours
eat many thing
after finish then we back lo

*see... darling eat de... so many

nice days
n happy days


by bbwen

*~ he DO···she DO ~*

19 & 20 September 2009
堂哥的大日子
婚礼

> 娶新娘的车<

> 19 Sept...出门前 <

>表妹<

> 表弟 <

> 20 sept ...早上出门前 <

> 在车上...接新娘的路途中 <

> bb..嫂嫂..堂哥 <

> 可爱的堂弟 <

> 20 sept 晚上...去晚宴前 <

> 握紧彼此的手...走在爱的红地毯..接受大家的祝福 <


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THE END ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


祝福
堂哥与嫂嫂
永远幸福快乐
甜甜蜜蜜
恩恩爱爱


by bbwen

无所事事

bb有点累
昨晚做学校的东西
到一点多才睡觉
今天早早就醒了
明天堂哥结婚了
堂哥新家就在bb家隔壁
所以早上去帮忙些东西

过后又继续做学校的东西
然后就做脸部护理
洗脸啊...敷脸啊
然后睡了一下
今晚保持最佳状态
要去大伯家
有自助餐吃哦

假期了
整天在家无所事事
胖了
整天吃
今晚吃自助餐
明晚去宴会吃好料
星期一帮弟弟庆祝生日
还没决定要去哪庆祝
星期二约了姐妹们出门咯
又去吃好料啦

整个假期都在玩
希望可以拿出些时间温习
当然
也要有想温习的mood啦


by bbwen

~Finally~

~ Finally ~

oh yeah
...finally...
bb finish trial exam ald
suffer for 2 weeks
finally i finish it
about the exam...how?
......dun think......dun ask......dun talk......
let it past
waiting for real STPM


~ BB's sunday ~

about sunday
bb hang out with family
celebrate bb birthday
go to sushi king
eat bb favourite sushi & mee
drink bb favourite tea
wait at there for bout 10 minutes
coz many ppl tat day

*wear my spec, contact lens finish...
without make up...coz lazy

*my favourite tea...


bb's foundation, mascara, blusher almost finish
buy this all at guardian auto-city
all silky girl coz always use tis brand
buy from mummy


~ Today ~

after school
go to take photo
last few weeks go to photoshut with my sis n frenz
the colour nt so balance
a bit ok after bb edit it

*bb & sis (vivi)

*SHE-min..bb..vivi

la la la
feel happy finish my trial exam
bt feel worry too
about results...results...result...
haiz
forget bout it
enjoy my holidays
watching tv..eating..sleeping..on9-ing
n also shopping
plan going to shopping on monday
with family + celebrate little brother's birthday
plan going to shopping again
on tuesday with friends
plan have a movie with them
and buy dress for form 6 annual dinner

p/s: sorry to emilynn, coz cnt go to penang with u all on monday...
i promise my family ald, n also promise my brother,
celebrate birthday with him...sorry ya, date u next time...


by bbwen

Biology······ing

Today
wake up in the early morning
then read the news paper
erm
news bout Andy Lau again
haiz
when will that all going to end

After that
going to play badminton with friends
play about 45 minutes only
because need to bring younger brother go to see sifu
his leg get injured when playing football
feel a bit relax after playing badminton
long time did do any exercise

memories-ing
keep memories-ing
everyday do the same thing
finish memories chemistry
continue biology this time
after that will continue maths formula and also pa
tired and bored


*~*~*~working hard + harder~*~*~*

by bbwen

...BB Here...

... About bb's Birthday ...

Thanks Thanks Thanks Thanks Thanks
Thanks for my dearest friends
Very happy when bb receive urs birthday msg
although bb so pity tat day
coz celebrate wif maths

*present from friends... bear bear

* thanks SHE (hui min)

* thanks darling (mavis), Bryant, Angeline,
Wei Siew (short-cut name for sweet couple)

*~ 特别鸣谢~*

..子扬..bryant..ee boon..SHE惠敏..ally..无名氏..jenny..christopher..
..bihun..heroshi..国钊..阿铭..小宁..UFO (虹芳)..wilson (hanghang)..
..伟丰..伟祥..鎨竮(顺平)..淑佩..木怀..darling(mavis)..赐银..adrian..sayang..
两个小堂妹---..小小儿..小小贝..
还有chris (乾哥哥)--..谢谢你的短讯祝福，还有你的生日歌..接到你的电话真的很意外，
应该是你自弹自唱的吧..touching..T_T

p/s: ..谢谢在friendster留comment的，在facebook留comment的，
在bb's blog留comment的，还有bb没列名字的..


>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> THE END <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<


*~About Friday~*

又没去上学了，在家温习...
下午就去学校，因为华文学会举办歌唱比赛+叙别会，
所以去凑热闹，支持参加的朋友...
今年的竞争比往年来得强，全部参赛者的水准都还不错，
观众好像很多，多了那几个‘捣蛋’的lower six观众，
高热了气氛，当然引来不少观众...嘻嘻
还有表演哦，都来自华文学会的会员...手语+舞蹈
突然发现，华文学会和红新月会都好像受很大的影响，每次的舞蹈表演，
* 都是JOLIN的歌 *
不错啦，跳得蛮好...

* 中五生以及老师

* 老师+筹委会+中五生

.............................. THE END ..............................


BY BBWEN

My Big Day... Bt Nt Belongs To Me...

Happy birthday to me

Happy birthday to me

Happy birthday to bb

Happy birthday to me

Today,

8 of September,

ya,

is my day,

it's bb big day...

Bt,

it's not my day...

havin trial exam on 9 sept,

ya,

2moro...

cnt celebrate wif my dearest friends,

wif my dearest family,

so...

celebrate wif my books...

haiz,

so pity...

anywhr,

gambateh, gambateh n gambateh...


by bbwen

好想要放假

假期

假期

假期

..............................

好想要假期哦，

不想读书了！

累！累！累！

好痛苦的日子...

睡醒就读书，

吃饱就读书，

就整天呆在房间...

今天也没去阿公家看阿公...

预考...预考...预考

很紧张，

很多题目都觉得老师会出，

所以...

必须全部读到完...

今晚又要熬夜了，

真的读不完了...

...加油...加油...加油...

p/s: bb big day... countdown: 3 days... 3 days...

by bbwen

~ MidNight With Maths ~

so late ald,

doing my revision until 4gt the time...

the time runing so fast...

yesterday (3 sept) din go to sch,

so do chemistry revision in the morning...

at nite, do maths revision exercise...

keep telling myself,

at least must finish 1 chapter's revision exercise b4 sleep,

finally i success,

finish 1 chapter's exercise...

so happy, i do it...

din feel sleepy when do maths,

bt only maths...

for other subjects,

cnt sit at there n study more than 4 hours...

almost 3 a.m...

2day will ponteng again,

haha,

i think tat i will nt able to wake up in the early morning,

about 6 a.m,

so will nt go to sch again...

receive my friend's msg juz nw,

he ask me,

y din see me at sch tis few days...

i answer, juz joke, i dun like to see him,

haha...

em...

nw feel a bit sleepy le,

wanna go to sleep...

so pity to my eye and my face ,

bcome worst n worst...

n also my hand and my brain,

do a lot of thing, keep a lot of notes...

everytime exam, tis sure will happen to me...

END HERE

good nite

good nite

good nite

p/s: BB BIG DAY... COUNTDOWN: 5 DAYS

by bbwen

献给...永远住在我心中的你

...~JUST FOR YOU, YI JIANG~...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YI JIANG

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U

献给一个很想念的朋友

今天是他的生日

他是...乙江

他呀

早已在我心中

而且

永远会在我心中

乙江

你听到我在唱生日歌给你吗

虽然你不在我们身边了

但

希望我的生日歌

在另一个天堂的你能收到

三年了

三年不见

你们两还好吗

*********************************************************

最近，从身旁的朋友，得知一些八卦的事...

突然，不知道该说什么，不知道该怎样表达我的心情...

一句话，surprise... really...

听朋友说，他们好像分手了...

而且，是‘他’向‘她’提分手的...
这不重要，重要的是，

朋友透露了你们在一起的时候，发生的事...

突然，现在的我，对现在的你，已经‘刮目相看’...

......THE END......

另一个消息...

她，要结婚了，恭喜恭喜...

这我早也知道了，早就听说...
她结婚的消息，不惊奇，惊奇的是，她背后的故事...
是她以前的事...

难以相信，好像只是幻觉...

是不是真的，就由她吧，反正不是我的事...

但，我对她，真的‘刮目相看’...

......THE END......

不管‘他’和‘她’的事了，

还是先管好自己的事比较好...

...努力中...

p/s: bb big day...countdown: 6 days

by bbwen

新照片

bb今天去拿照片了...
呵呵，
拍得不是很好看，
自己edit过才觉得还好...
合照还没拿，
因为今天才去选，
所以...
要等两个星期后...

今天去学校，
超闷的，
又蛮累一下...
本来想不去，
就因为老师昨天说会有活动，
以为有karate，
所以就去咯...
哪知道，
我们的活动很特别，
就是...
回班做练习，
不必去活动...
唉，
好像被骗...

明天不去学校咯，
想呆在家，
努力奋斗...
这几天都很迟才睡觉，
脸上的豆豆，
长了不少，
脸色很难看，
有点苍白，
好像病人...
哈哈，
darling（mavis）说，
幸亏有口罩，
因为带上去，
可以遮住一半的脸，
就看不到豆豆啦...
她还蛮可爱...

嗯，
今天没什么特别的事，
就到这吧...
bb要k书了...

......努力中......

p/s:// bb big day... countdown: 7 days

by bbwen

now + later

NOW, what's bb doing?

yup, study study study...

very tired, so online, n update bb's blog...

feel sleepy, really, my eye look small, wan to close ald...

bt i try to open it, make myself more concentrate in study...

keep memories chemistry, many reaction need to memories,

if nt, i also dunno how to answer when exam...

LATER, after finish writing, mayb continue my maths...

maths, must score, must score,

i keep telling myself...

bcoz, among the 4 subjects, maths more easier to score,

i think...

next week, having my trial exam, STPM TRIAL EXAM...

so scare, scare cnt gt answer, scare fail in any 1 subject...

worry too much, bt, sure, i hope tat all tis will nt happen to me...

try my best lah...

bb stop here, will be continue when free...

now continue my maths revision, will burn mid night oil, for tis 2 weeks...

omg, my face, look like petient again...

add oil...add oil...

p/s: BB BIG DAY... COUNTDOWN: 8 DAYS

by bbwen