如果

健康
好像亮红灯了

学业
可能亮红灯了

爱情
请你不要亮红灯
好不好

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

最近
总觉得自己的身体怪怪的
是胸口痛吗
好像是
其实我也不太确定
是因为最近考试
常熬夜的关系吗
不晓得
前几天睡醒突然很痛
从来没有这样过
很痛很痛
我无法说话
我无法呼吸
好像下一秒
死神就要把我带走似的
幸亏过后没事了
好可怕的感觉
18.12.2010
星期六
早上起来
又隐隐作痛了
可是就只是感觉到一点点痛
一下子就好了
没之前的严重
晚上
去吃火锅
庆祝瑞和文杰的生日
突然又有点点痛了
就那么一下下
我想
是时候回家
然后做个身体检查了

如果
我有什么病
如果
那是癌症之类
我
怎么办

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18.12.2010
考最后一科
好开心
然后就可以回家
放假一星期了
可是
开始担心了
是真的很难
还是我读得不够
不会回答
不知道
读了那么多
熬了那么多夜
希望
稳稳及格就好
可是
及格的机率
好像很渺茫
不及格
不是我想要的
我希望
顺顺利利及格
顺顺利利毕业

如果
我不及格了
我
怎么办

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刚刚
我们又吵架了
也不算什么很大的争吵
知是他觉得
有时候
我不重视他
我不在乎他
而他
为了要我更关心他
更重视他
更在乎他
他竟然
跟朋友去mois喝酒
他知道的
我并不喜欢他这样做
可是他还是做了
还喝醉了
我应该怎样做呢
你要我怎样
才满意呢
宝贝
请你不要怀疑我
好吗
请你不要用那种方式
对自己
对我
好吗
请你相信我
我在乎你
我关心你
我重视你
我更爱你
宝贝
我真的爱你
很爱很爱你

如果
没有你
我
怎么办

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该睡了
早上10点30分的火车回家
早上可能约晓琪吃早餐
晚安


by bbw3n

chocolate week

...xiu xiu xiu...

my blog full of dust
is time to clean it

i m here
finally sem 2 goin to end
n nw is study week
is time for me to work hard for final exam
then my holidays is coming soo
n n wat i m waiting for is christmas
i m waiting for my christmas present

talk bout tis few days
i cnt sleep well tis few nitez
i dunno y i tired
i wanna sleep
bt i cnt sleep well
even i force myself to sleep

n 2daywake up in the early morning
go to buy train ticket
back my sweet home after exam
then breakfast with them
qi..kent..grace..xiang..jun kit..jun liang
n after tat we go tesco
thanks very much
1st
thanks jun kit for fetch us
n 2nd
thanks xiang buy chocolate for me
appreaciate


*chocolate from xiang*





afternoon
shareen come to kampar
very surprise
bt i din go garden wif them
coz still in study mood tat time
n nite
we go old town dinner together
then we go to dating
i like shareen's camerait is fujifilm
i wan it for so long
oki will try my best to save money
n buy it
after that
they plan go to 21st
n i din follow them
for me
i nt so close wif shareen them actually
n i think will nth to chat if i go
so i end up wif goin back
thanks kent grace n qi for acc me back

n when i reachi wan find someone to chat
i wonder tat y dear din reply my msg
so i call him
he is at alex house
n they having bbq
dear din tell me pun
finallynobody to chat to
n end up with study
good
i should do like tat
final is coming soon
n my target for tis sem
is 3.0 for my CGPA
i know it is hard for me
bt i will try my best



*chocolate from my dear*
this is the chocolate tat dear buy me
the day tat i wan back kampar
we go breakfast tat morning
n afternoon i m goin back to kampar
i m period pain tat day
dear say eat chocolate will feel better
so he buy me some chocolate
n i no chance to drink my favourite dark mocha from starbucks
anywhr
thanks dear
i will take care myself
love u much much




ok
continue study
n sleep early 2nite
hope tat i cn sleep well



bbw3n

saturday

saturday

is a meaningful day
go to school wif my sis
join a event that organized by UTAR Counseling & Guidance Unit
it is a sharing sessions
called Dare To Dream
1st sharing session is by 2 guests from UTAR
1 girl n 1 boy
they share hw they work hard for their dream
the girl
wan to be a reported
n nw she is in the half way to her dream
n the boy
he is interested in filming
n he had won many prizes in many film competition
he had met many famous ppl who oso involve in film
like jacky cheng

the 2nd session
is a special guest
he is guang liang
a famous singer from m'sia
he share manything
hw he become singer
the difficulities that he face
n so on
it is a very enjoy's sharing session
n at last

he sign for his EP

* sharing sessions *

* the emcee*



* bbw3n with EP *




* leaving *



when he is goin to leave
all UTAR student waiting at outside os heritage hall
and the guys that wear formal ones
is UTAR students
they as body guard
they really tall n strong
haha


when i reach home
i thought that i cn take a bath then take a snap
who knows
i saw the rubbish
i know that the rubbish ald full since friday nite
bt i dun wan clean it
finally
me to clean it again
everytime juz me n my sis care about it
i dunno why
izzit they din c the rubbish full ald
they dun wan clean it nvm
bt they oso din take a new plastic to throw their rubbish
the rubbish full ald
they still wan find place to throw their rubbish
until the rubbish fall down on the floor
i dunno wat to say
i hv no comment on it
i m tired



by bbw3n

moody saturday

2day
a moody day

last nite
din finish my assignment
n something happen between me n dear
no mood to do anything
end up with going out with friends
first
go to lakeside wif yu xiang n xiao qi
3 of us again
chatting thr
n after tat
go mcd n have our mcflurry
after tat rui meet us thr
cntinue chatting

i m very sad
n angry
first time he do like tat
he write something tat rude for me
he know i dislike
bt he do it to me
n is my 1st time too
receive such msg
second
he close my phone
without say goodbye
we promise each other before
no matter wat happen to us
muz say bye 1st before close the phone

i dunno y
since i come n study at kampar
everytime we argue
bcoz of me n my friends
i always out wif friends
no time accompany him
i tired
bt i still cn accompany friends out
cnt accompany him
i dunno
tat's all he say to me
he think friends more important in my life
even more important than him
i dunno
i really dunno y he think like tat
i dunno wat should i do
mayb i end my study n back hometown
is the best choice
i think

i worry bout my ah gong
rush for my assignment
n nw
wan think bout him n myself
i very moody
really moody today
even nth between us ald
i hate tat feeling
i tired



by bbw3n

保佑他

愿上帝保佑他

愿他的情况赶快好转
愿他不要那么痛
愿他不要那么辛苦

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suddenly feel like want to write something
write my feeling
write my thinking

back to hometown last week
sure
i will go to see ah gong n ah ma
ah gong was suffer
suffer from pain
he feel whole body pain
he cnt walk well since a few months ago
bt nw
he totally have problem in walking
wat cn he do
is just lying on the bed
i cnt feel the pain tat ah gong was suffering
bt i m very sad

yesterday
call mum n chatting wif her
she tell me tat ah gong sick jor
n after eat the medicine
he is in the unconscious situation
he talk something tat nobody know
n he cnt recognize everyone
i m shock
i m crying
y suddenly bcome so serious
i feel wanna back home
i miss ah gong
i miss him so much

mum tell me tat nw getting better
he cn recognize someone
bt i still worry
i miss him so much so much
hope everything getting well


a bit tired nw
doing nothing tis 2 days
go to music gathering in campus
nt bad
enjoy in that moment
enjoy in all the performance
they really do well
wan to sleep
bt i cnt
rush for assignment
hopefully
i cn finish it 2nite


feel tat i need him sometimes
bt i know
i cnt demand to get it
he nt belongs to mine




by bbw3n